Recovery Saved Evans Life
June 16, 2015
I firmly believe that the most treacherous storms bring about the sunniest days. My name is Evan and I am a person with a substance use disorder committed to long term recovery. I started treatment at Fairbanks in January of 2011, and began attending Hope Academy in March that same year. I was such a different person at that time. I was full of anger, hatred, and self-loathing. The most important thing on my mind was me and my drug use. I was an unhappy person. It has been a long road to where I am today, and people find it hard to believe me when I tell them about my past. I am very grateful I don’t have to speculate about what life would be like without Fairbanks.
Because of Fairbanks, my parents won’t have to attend their child’s funeral because of an overdose. I view what Fairbanks has given me as more than a gift of recovery, but a gift of life. I learned to love myself. One of the most important things I was given is the opportunity to be a productive member of society and the ability to practice honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness in my life. One of my favorite things to do is to make people laugh and smile, which is much easier to do when I have my own happiness.
When I wake up in the morning, I do not feel ashamed of who I am. I am now proud of who I am. I wouldn’t be half the person I am today if it weren’t for all the pain I experienced. I have gratitude for every day I am able to wake up and live my life. I have seen too many people die from this disease, especially those younger than me. I now cherish my friendships everyday as if I weren’t going to see them again. The beauty of recovery is the fact that I lost the desire to use drugs. My parents are going through a divorce right now, and I can cope with my emotions and handle my situation in a mature way. Recovery has given me the opportunity to be available for others in their struggles. Instead of always focusing on myself, I have the chance to focus on others in their times of need.
I am active in my recovery by volunteering with individuals still struggling with this disease. I hope to give back in my recovery as well, that’s why I am currently pursuing a human services degree to become an adolescent addictions counselor. One thing always holds true to me is a quote from Kahlil Gibran, which reads, “Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls, the most massive characters are seared with scars.”